Wednesday, August 30, 2006
its been close to a month since i last updated dis blog.. well, been busy werking and studying for exams which i hope i can pull through... i guess the main reason for making dis post is for this special someone whom i really like being around with... she juz makes my day with her smile and stuff.. well, came back from the class chalet today. i was so tired cos i didn slp bt its well worth it as she was dere at the chalet too. the thing dat i regret was actualling missing the first day of the chalet bcoz of work n they told me dat it was a happening night. well, i went there on the second day juz in time for bbq. didn saw dat many people at the chalet at first as most of them went cycling wen i reached. after a while she came back wif her friends. she was shocked to see me coz she tot i was not coming. at dat moment my heart was racing, she look more gorgeous than ever bt i juz kept quiet.
after dinner and stuff, we played this card game called dai di. i was sitting right beside her. she was caring n ask me to b careful not to hit my head on the table n even offered me a pillow. the look on her face with concern really touched me. we were sitting quite close to each other and at dat time i really wish i could lean my head on her shoulders as i was getting tired. at around 3a.m, we all decided to go night cycling. there were six of us me, kok ping, jimmy, hui rong and her n another gal. she was abit high as she was drinking before we went. i was quite worried initially bt she assured me dat shes fine. we cycle to the fisherman village and she decided to play the swing. i tot dat it was a bad idea bt i juz kept quiet. my worries was dat i hope we r nt disturbin any spirits or stuff in dat area n many elders hav warn me abt dat area as it was 4a.m in the morn. while they were playin wif the swing, i was actually asking 4 forgiveness to the surroundings as i was worried something might not b pleased dat we r intruding their area. she was enjoying herself wif the swing. i was really worried as jimmy n her was making a considerable amount of noise bt i dowan to ruin her mood so i juz kept mum. they all noticed it bt i juz kept quite all the way. bt in my heart , i was praying for her safety. i dowan aniting to happen to her. wen we reached the chalet area, some of us wans to continue to cycle bt she was tired.i purposely went back to the chalet wif her n jimmy as i wanna make sure dat she was alright. i ask her to wash up n i said some prayer n ask her to slp. as we continue cycling, my mind was actually at the chalet worrying 4 her. bt i was relief to c her sleeping soundly wen we came back. by the time we came back it was oredi 7plus n me n jimmy decided to go swimming. we jumped into the pool n swam for a mere 5 mins b4 we were asked to get out as the pool officially opens at 9. with notin to do, we all went back to the chalet to get some sleep before we check out.
i didn slp though as many things were running through my mind, i was tinkin shud i tell her hw i really feel or shud i juz keep to myself. i decided to keep it to myself n let nature takes its course. as she currently hates guys bcoz of a past relationship dat destroys her trust in guys i decided its nt the time to tell. bt i really wans to get it off my chest. hw?? .. she is a perfect gal which all guys wants to hav as a gf. well, i don tink i hav the chance bt i would like to wish her happiness. for nw, i hope i could see her again real soon ..........
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